This blog is pretty similar to one I posted a year ago on the 17th of December.
There are two things I want to share this year. First, don't let people take away what you so strongly believe in and dream about and second, being satisfied, no happy, where you are in your life.
First...I have made a commitment to someone very important in my life. I've prayed for him for as long as I could remember, and I believe that I have been blessed to receive him. But, he didn't come to me perfect and there are things that he needs to address in him life that I can't help him with. Its not my place nor my call. But, I was speaking with someone last night and this gentleman was trying to get me to walk away from the commitment I made. He asked, "how long are you going to wait?" "I would think that if he wanted a relationship with you, he wouldn't have needed space." To be honest with you, this made me angry and then I heard what the Spirit was telling me....because of my FAITH in my prayer and in the man that I was blessed to receive, I'm not going to walk away because someone else wants to sway me away and have sex with me "one more time" because he thinks about me all the time. Goodness, that sounds so selfish. Doesn't it?
This brings me to the second item. I struggle a lot emotionally during the holiday session. Usually because I deal with much sadness and depression in my counseling practice, but, there have been a great deal of changes happening in my personal life that has brought about my own personal sadness. Then this morning, while I was thinking about the conversation I had with the gentleman the night before, I realized I am living my dream life. Roughly, four years ago, I was blessed to lose a job I really was tired of and it opened the door to allow me to do what I've dreamed of doing, writing and therapy. Not that it has been easy the whole way, and I still struggle, but, I am supposed to be happy and everything else will come, right?
We all live in the mindset of lacking. We lack this, we lack that and we never seem to be happy with anything that we already have. We aren't satisfied until we have more of something that we are only going to be unhappy with when we receive it. A night of pleasure with a different man isn't going to bring me happiness. It will only make me miserable, because I broke a promise to be there for someone when he was at his lowest. I have been blessed to be able to get another book in production for publishing and I wouldn't have been able to do that if I were working a full time, 60+ hour job.
My challenge to you this holiday season....take a moment and list all the things that you are grateful for. Don't worry about what you don't have, but, be glad you have what you do have. Take a moment and think about others who would love to have what you have right about now, a place to lay their head, a car to drive or a job to go to. You have the power within yourself to give yourself what you want or to continue to live in misery that you push away any kind of happiness. You have the power and its in them shoes.
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