I'm BACK!!!
Hey everyone!
I'm back and it feels great! I checked the archives of the last time I posted here and it was 2015. So much has happened and I can't wait to share it all with you!
In 2015, I started a full time job that took me away from my private practice, though I kept it going for 3 years I had to close it due to medical issues. I had a biopsy in 2015 to determine if I had breast cancer. I didn't. I'll share that in a later post. In 2016, I met the love of my life and began planning a wedding and in July 2017, we postponed it. I closed my private practice in 2018 and in 2019 I quit the full time job after 4 years to pursue my dream of becoming a full time writer. And that's what I want to share with you.
FOLLOWING YOUR DREAMS.....We all have dreams things that we want to do or see before we leave this earth. My dream has always been to become a writer, maybe a famous author, I don't know, but I always dream of writing that great American novel. I've written a couple books, Kiss to Betrayal, Coming Through Emotional and Mental Abuse and A Costly Mistake. Both fiction books centering around domestic violence. I've even written a book on prayer 3AM Conversations with God. I've even written some erotica, but there has always been that one book in me that I've yet to write. My masterpiece? I don't know. I don't want to sound mellow dramatic.
During the time I have been away, I met a movie producer; we met in the most obscure way. We talked for a few hours on the phone before deciding to meet in person. The day I met him we agreed to meet at a hotel and we spent hours talking. Talking about his life. It was during this meeting he told me that he wanted me to write his book. He had no idea when it was going to happen nor had he read anything that I'd published, but he just knew. Since then he has read some of my work. We stayed in contact over the years and every time we spoke he told me he wanted me to write something for him. This last year we finally met and discussed a new project. It originally would be a screenplay. I had taken screen writing courses, because he had suggested it. But as of late he's decided its not a screenplay that he wants written, but now a book, a couple of them.
Up until today, I lost sight of my goal my dream. I quit my job a little more than 30 days ago. I was grateful for the opportunity that was presented to me, but I got scared. I started thinking about all the reasons I shouldn't be following my dream. The #1 reason, I've got no money coming in, not yet. As long my friend's current project sits on some one's desk waiting to be green lighted, I have no money. Yet it hit me, why aren't I grateful for this opportunity? Why aren't I excited that I am finally going to finish that romance novel that I said I was going to start? How come I haven't reached out to a literary agent to help me market my finished projects?
The short of it--I'm afraid of succeeding. Not failing, but succeeding. You want to know why? Because what will be expected of me next? I don't get the time to sit back on my laurels and basket in the glory of meeting a goal, because the next one is staring me in the face, the next project and the next and the next. But I heard something yesterday. I heard someone say that I ought to be grateful that I get to. I GET TO! What a crazy thing to say. I get to sit down at the computer and create a novel or write a script or work with a movie producer to write a book and see it become a movie. I GET TO! What an honor. I should be grateful. Oh, and I am. After I heard this yesterday it became very clear to me that I need to be grateful that I have these opportunities. That I am following my dream.
What are your dreams that you aren't following because you are afraid? Maybe we need to turn it around and say, I GET TO and what an honor and how grateful I am that I have a dream that I've been sitting on and its been presented to me and all I have to do to is say, Thank you.
